My Only Trap

I honestly wonder how it became this way. When did I fall into this trap where I let everything you say about me dictate how I feel, what I do, and how I feel about what I do. I didn't realize you became my parent or my boss, and now I don't know how to get out of this slump. I'm trapped in this hole that I've brought upon myself, and I can't even trust you to lift me up. No, I have to hear your criticisms and then go on acting like what you're saying to me is right and okay for you to say so that we don't spend another night fighting.

I'm sick of this. I'm sick of being afraid of never being good enough for you, that I will never do anything up to your standards. Can't you see that I'm already in a slump? And you think your solution is to point out all of the things that I'm doing wrong -- show your complete disappointment of me? How on Earth do you think that's the way to go? I'm not you, and I will never be like you, so you need to see that I need to solve this in a different way than you did. Your way is not end-all be-all, and I'm tired of you not understanding.

I seriously cannot believe the interaction we just had: you asking to see the work that I've done, like you were a teacher trying to catch their student in a lie. Who are you to judge the work I've been doing, when you yourself have not been putting much work into your goals. I may have gotten myself stuck, but now you are the one that is keeping me trapped.

~B.A.D.

My Only Introduction

What's in a blog? What makes others so interested in a particular person's writing? Is it the style, the content? Perhaps some are just born with the skill to draw people in with their words. Or, maybe, it's easier to connect with one blogger than another.

Although it's virtually impossible to do, that's what I plan to achieve with my blog: connection. In my particular blog, I will post daily journal entries of my time growing up. I hope to connect with others and help show them that they're not alone. Whether they feel like it's the end of the world or they're just having a rough day, perhaps the reassurance that they aren't the only ones that feel that way will help them see that there is a so-called 'light at the end of the tunnel'. 

Now, about the peculiar titling. As it states, this blog is my only lie. This means that no one knows that I've even started a blog, nor what it's about. This is where all of you come in. Is there anything no one else knows about that you just want to get off of your chest? Feel free to bare-it-all, and send in your suggestions. I'll gladly post them anonymously, if you prefer, as well. 

Thank you so much for taking the time out to read my post. I hope you all have a wonderful day!

*If you'd like to send in any suggestions, feel free to send them here.